Behind The Walls Of Frustrations

I do have mixed emotions for today, but the anguish dominates my heart. It follows me every time and everywhere I go like a shadow behind me. I can’t escape the feeling of being empty and helpless.

I thought it would be a TGIF! Things don’t go to what I have wanted to happen. At some point, I came to expectation that I can answer the preliminary examination of my Mathematics subject which is not good for me, and for any person. Take me as an example. I’m the one who felt frustrated in the end. Learn from me.

It will never be easy for me to forget this day of my life.

I feel this way because I spent so many times studying it. I even slept too late every night just to understand my lessons.

Today, it’s like that I came to a battle that I am only half prepared. In that case, there are big chances of losing the battle than surviving it. I am the one who deserves blame, and clearly not the subject. Maybe, I did not give all that I can give.

I’m not saying that you should be afraid of Mathematics. We should learn to love it even though it is quite complicated.

Honestly, I can consider myself as a neophyte of the subject. I don’t know why, but I am always having a hard times remembering how to solve mathematical equations. When I solve some problems, I’ll take a long time just to solve even just a single problem. Now, it will be hard for me to answer a test which has a time deadline.

For now, I’m having a sad face because of it. But, I will never let this feeling overcome myself. Thanks to my friends that somehow made me forget this grudge of mine. I still stick to my mission in life. There is still room for my improvement and I truly deserve it. There is more to life than this.

Time will come for me to recover from it. Maybe it’s not for now but it will come.

This happening of today will serve and mark for another tomorrow. This will give me new strength to work harder than before. I’ll make sure that from now on; I’ll double my effort to study not just for math but also for other subjects. Still, this major event for today has also advantages. For those who have the same situation like mine, or somehow feels the same way like I do, view things on the other side. You’ll still find treasures behind the thick walls of frustrations.